From social life to mil

So minsu and i have been connecting lately. Its so weird bc i feel exactly how she feels about the local churches these days! Its hard to find a good EM that is spiritually strong! But glad i can finally connect with someone on my level~ Thanku Jesus~ ♥
Now about mil.. wow i wrote a long txt venting to oppa about how i truly felt about his mom i wonder how he will react. :/
I wanna txt her:
늦어서 죄송해요~~ 혹시라도요... 어머님이 저한테 불편하신거 있으세요? 제가 뭔가 잘못한거 있으세요? 아님 무슨 불만이라두요? 솔직히 전 어머님이랑 좋은 관계를 갇고싶어요~ 근데 왜이렇게 어려운지 모르겠네요..
She really has been mean to me lately. I think today was sorta her last chance~ i have tried to give her a few opportunities to do family stuff but every time she refuses~ i dunno wat it is? Maybe she is jealous and feels left out bc we now bought a house and etc? Ever since diana has a son she acts so differently~ it gives me a headache trying to figure this woman out she is so difficult~ i wondered if its just me.. but im beginning to think its the both of us~ y doesnt she even help  bring her dishes and stuff? And then diana all of a sudden started doing the same?! Maybe im just thinking too much.. with 2 kids this should be the least of my worries.. i sorta feel bad for nathan~ mil has been treating him more distance since noah has come.. and its not noahs fault at all~ mil is just not a good grandma.. she is so 2 faced it makes me sick. She takes such good care ofnnathan in front of oppa but when hes not there its so different. How can a believer in christ be this way?! It makes me so sad. Wat can i do~ Jesus is watching~ he hears my cries.. he sees wats happening.. and forgive me Lord for trying to stoop to her level and plan evil schemes. I love you Lord.. and thanku for always providing for me and my family~ ♥